Faith is something that I’ve struggled with for a long time, and I’ve found that there are different ways to struggle. For example, you could lack faith in God’s goodness, or in His plan for you. You could even lack the faith that He exists!
With a naturally reflective and skeptical personality, I’ve been all 3 of these people at one point or another. BUT NOW, I have such a strong desire to rid my skepticism and just wholly trust God, NO QUESTIONS ASKED!
But that’s really hard.
The problem is that no matter how long we study the bible for, no matter how many hours we spend in church, FAITH CANNOT BE MANUFACTURED. Faith is given by God as a gift to us, but not because we’re are deserving of it. So, if it’s a gift from God, why have I not yet received it? Or maybe I already have and because of my skepticism, I’ve rejected it. And now I’m stuck trying to find the pieces of wrapping paper to tape back together, but it’ll never be as pure as when it was first given.
“God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it.”
Ephesians 2:8-9 (NLT)
Faith is NOT believing without any proof. Faith is having absolute trust in somebody, and in this case that somebody is God. Knowing this, we can understand that faith is part of our relationship with Him. And by experience, we know that NO relationship is easy. Relationships take work! But it is impossible to satisfy God without faith, so it’s very difficult for me to see that I have a relationship with him because it’s something that I struggle with so severely.
I guess if I had to ask God anything, I’d want to know, does He have faith in me? Does He have faith that my trust in Him will eventually grow strong and our relationship will flourish? That this won’t always be a struggle? It feels so selfish to ask those questions and need that reassurance. But that’s just another reason why I need to have complete faith in Him and His plan for me.
I believe in God. But I want to increase my faith. HOW DO I DO THAT?
We CANNOT do it alone! We need God. But if our faith in God is weak, we do have the option to divulge in the Bible, His word. We can learn about His love and mercy and why we are here struggling in the first place. Then we can make the choice to trust His existence, His goodness, AND His plan for you. With the knowledge he has given us through the Bible, we can decide to put our complete trust Him – giving Him, as Carrie Underwood puts it, the wheel!
God does NOT want us to suffer. And by fully giving Him our trust – taking the huge chance and letting go of our skepticism – He can bring us to peace, happiness, love, AND FAITH.
“No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”
1 Corinthians 10:13 (ESV)