Stop Being Selfish With Instagram Envy

I did a difficult thing this week.

I went through my entire Instagram account, and unfollowed every single model and sexualized female advertising their attractiveness.

Good for them, they look fantastic, and I have nothing against them.

But I constantly compare myself to them. I even save the photos of my ideal body type, just to look through them later with envy.

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These women don’t deserve to be viewed that way, through I can imagine they’re greatly flattered that millions of girls long to look like them or even be them! If I’m going to follow someone on Instagram, it’s because I want to support them, not to invoke jealousy.

I’ve tried to mimic their accounts too, thinking that would make my content more desirable. That obviously didn’t work because it wasn’t me. When I am completely honest with myself and others, my content and confidence thrive. There’s nothing relatable about being fake.

By envying instagram models and trying to mimic their style, I am saying to other girls that I want them to envy me. And I NEVER want someone to look at me and feel bad about themselves because they are envious of the posed lifestyle I promote. I wholeheartedly want my content to help girls love themselves more, not give them a reason to judge themselves because they are not like me.

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I’ve attempted this deleting spree in the past and was horribly unsuccessful. I didn’t want to let go of this fantasy that they were perfect and in order to motivate myself to be more perfect, I had to continue beating myself up by viewing the photos.

I’m not going to sit here and write to you that the beauty industry is toxic and blame these women for making me feel bad about myself. It’s completely my mindset, and right now, I can’t look at their photos without being selfish and unsatisfied with myself.

I challenge each of you to go through your instagram account and filter out the negativity. Be honest with yourself about why your following some people. Is it because you truly support them? Or is because you get some weird type of satisfaction by envying these women and feeling discontent with yourself?

Don’t you deserve to love yourself the way you think these women are loved?

This realization hit me hard. Why do I feel as though I am somehow different and unlovable? It is selfish. I am selfish. I don’t deserve that kind of self-hatred, and instagram models don’t deserve to be blamed for contributing to that. Stop being selfish with instagram envy!

With difficulty and pain, I am committing myself to nixing comparisons, just being honest, and sharing genuine content!

Are you with me??

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3 thoughts on “Stop Being Selfish With Instagram Envy

  1. I just realized we have the same initials. MB. I don’t follow people like that but being a bidding artist, I find my negativity stems from comparing myself to others who have years and years of practice. So I feel bad, about posting my own art and feel like I’ll never be as good as them. I wonder if people feel that way when they look at my art. Hmm.

    It’s super important to get rid of the negativity.

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    1. How fun, an MB twin!! I totally understand that. There’s different types of accounts that we’re drawn to based on our own content. I’m curious now too if anyone feels that way about me, I certainly hope not, but who knows? I think it’s important to post the work you are proud of, that way if someone doesn’t like it, it’s their problem. If you love what you do, no one can make you feel inadequate about it!!

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